Proud Mommy Moments

Being a first time mom isn’t as easy as I thought. I have always imagined how I should raise my child only to realize that It wasn’t as easy as I thought it would be. I always hoped for a well behaved, not sutil, not brat child. Well, My daughter’s not a brat and well behaved, uhm.. sometimes. But I learned that no matter how hands on you are as a mom, there are still things that are out of your control. Toddlers are normally malikot because they explore a lot. Their learning process begins so they love to imitate and follow the elders. As with Jhia, she follows me wherever I go, kahit sa cr! When she started walking, she goes all around the house – from the sala, to my parents’ room, to the kitchen, and even outside! Without her crib that serves as a gate, I wouldn’t be surprised if she’d be able to go upstairs. Malikot kung malikot, makulit kung makulit! She puts things in her mouth, kahit anong mapulot nya. Even that crawling creature we call “tren-tren” pinupulot nya. Huhu. Yuck, I know.

That’s the thing about toddlers – they start exploring. Yun lang, sometimes I catch her just trying to annoy me or her dad. You know it when she’s just playing tricks on us. It’s easy to point to her what’s good and what’s not. Sometimes, even if I just said no, she’ll keep doing it, as if testing my patience. When she felt like you’re getting angry, bigla syang tatawa. You lose. Sometimes, it’s cute. Sometimes, arrrggghh!

But being a hands-on mom is also rewarding. I gave up my profession to see my daughter’s daily milestone, including her everyday new kakulitan. Breastfeeding her is on the top of the list! Yeps, she’s exclusively breastfed up to now and I don’t have any plans of weaning her until she opted to. Nasa bahay lang naman ako. Wala naman akong ibang gagawin kung hindi tutukan sya. May gatas naman ako. So why not, diba? After all, breastmilk is best for babies. Full of nutrients na, tipid pa.

Jhia started walking at ten months. One time, this kuya from the hmo noticed her:

Kuya: mam, yan na yung baby mo? Ang laki na ha. May isang taon na ba yan?

Me: mag iisang taon palang.

Kuya: (saw her walking) oh, naglalakad na?

Me: opo, kung saan na nga nakakaabot.

Kuya: talaga? Ang galing naman. Mahal siguro gatas nyan!

Husband: Breastfed yan.

Kuya: oh? Breastfeed lang, walang kahalong gatas?

Husband: wala.

kuya: pwede pala yun. Ang galing ah!

There may not be a direct relation between breastfeeding and she, waking a little too early for her age..

Hashtag Proud Mommy Moment: exclusive breastfeeding. ✔️

When Jhia turned six months, I started giving her mashed vegetables. I used to mix it with my milk so medyo familiar sa kanya yung lasa. I read it in a breastfeeding group so I did it to her. It worked! Hindi sya picky eater, well, if being picky doesn’t include eating less of sour foods. Hehe. She eats almost everything you give her, that’s her hobby. She just doesn’t like sour and dry foods, although she gives it a try. Mga ilang subo, ayaw nya na. Like sinigang and fried dishes. She doesn’t each much when those are served although she eats pineapple. Most that she likes are veggies and soup dishes: Ginisang Gulay, Chopsuey, Ginisang Sayote, Nilaga are just some of her favorites. She also likes to eat fruits. Hindi lang for dessert, but also for merienda and gusto-nya-lang-may-kinakaen moments, hehe. Hey, she eats broccolis! We don’t strictly follow the Tamang Kain rule as I allow her to eat junk foods and sweets sometimes. Only a little so that she’d be familiar with them. Pinapainom ko nalang ng tubig agad. My friends are commending us for her eating habits as most of the kids we know are picky eater. I’ve got some mommy friends who asked me to share my techinque with them and they’re not even first time moms!

Proud Mommy Moment: Make her eat healthy foods ✔️

Jhia is indeed a “tipid baby”. When she turned a month old, I started using Cloth Diapers on her. I recognize that she has a sensitive skin. We used to apply a diaper cream everytime we change nappies. So instead of experimenting what diaper would fit her, I tried the CD. Charaaan! No more rashes! Goodbye, diaper cream! Good job, CD! Well, it only requires an extra effort and time to wash them. You’re lucky if you get extra hands for that. And maybe a little extra expense as it costs 200php and up each but you’ve also saved in the long run. We didn’t ditch the disposable diaper at all, though. We still use one or two at night. 1) It sometimes leaks, maybe due to repeated wash the insert gets thinner. Or maybe just because she’s malikot matulog; 2) I used to wash the CDs right after use, especially when she pooped and I cannot do it at night. When she was a baby, she poops even at night; 3) It’s kind of bulky when going out and my lazy ass wouldn’t want to bring an extra bag for the diapers. In figures, we only spend about 300pesos for a pack of 60’s disposable diapers good for a month or two. That’s a lot more tipid than buying every week and less hassle, too. I don’t need run to the grocery store every now and then. By the way, I bought the CDs online so convenient padin as I just have to wait for them to be delivered and need not to go out anymore.

Proud Mommy Moment: tipid for Cloth Diapering ✔️

I still have a long list of parenting do’s for my little kid. It’s an advantage I stay at home and got time to read. Maybe that’s the key: reading. When I was pregnant, I used my time in joining support groups and advanced reading about parenting. Then I started practicing what I read when Jhia was born. It’s hard at first. Nothing comes easy on the first time, I guess. Thankful that I have my husband who walks hand in hand with me as we both become first time parents.

Parenting – bago na naman to. We’re done with adulting now we’re faced with new challenges in the parenting stage. Guess it just never ends. I still have a long way to go with Jhia. And there’s plenty of things to learn and do. My professional days are over. This is my new career. Hashtag Mommy Duties. ❤️

My Day

Today, I finally had the courage to buy something – few things, actually – for myself.

Since the little kid came, all that I buy is always something for her. Not to spoil her or something, but shopping for her every once in a while has become my stress reliever. Yeps, made me feel guilty sometimes, though. Being a mom is an overwhelming feeling that I almost forgot myself.

So hashtag TodayIsMyDay. Thanks to my ever supportive husband and my ever beloved daughter, I finally got a few items for myself! Thanks to the 50% off and hubby’s ‘sayang yun o. Di na magsesale ulit’. Hehe.

Being a stay at home mom, my focus is always with Jhia. My priority is to be able to provide her needs. But that is not a reason to forget about myself. With Jhia getting over with infancy, it’s about time I get back to myself.

 

Little Kid’s Birthday Prep

 

Unlock the frustrated events planner in me. Whew!

It’s Jhia’s first birthday in less than two months and the busy mom have started searching and gathering ideas on how her special day would be. Sharing with you, here are some of the final details so far:

Theme: Jhia ONEderful year
I decided not to go with the usual character theme just yet. I just thought she’s too young for that and still couldn’t understand such things (hehe) so, it will be all about her first year – toys, baby stuffs, dresses, etc. and will be a combination of Princess, Barney, Minnie Mouse and kiddie girly stuffs. The venue set up will be like a playroom where her toys will be.

Caterer: Ramelyn’s Caterning Services
One of my most trusted suppliers. Ika nga, subok na. They’ve served during mama and papa’s 50th anniversary and a friend’s wedding. Their food is delicious and the service is high quality at a reasonable price. I guess I’ve build friendship with their staff, too. Hehe. You may contact them here.

Cake Supplier: Crown Royale Cakes
Loyal customer here! Hehe. Well, their creations are really amazing. The cake tastes really good and the designs are absolutely the best! You may check Meann’s profile for their creations.

So far, eto pa lang yung sure about Jhia’s birthday. We’re still working on other stuffs and yet to decide for the venue. By the way, I have a long list of venues along Valenzuela and QC area I will share with you on my next entry.

Do you have suggestions on venue and other stuffs about the party, or questions, maybe? Feel free to comment. Pictures will be posted after the event, of course. Hehe.

Midnight Thoughts

Timecheck: it’s 3:58am

..And I’ve been awake since 2.

We don’t usually wake up in the middle of the night but tonight’s just not my lucky night. For some reason, Jhia wants to stay latched and won’t let me put her down on bed.

Sometimes, it’s hard being a hands on mom. The little kid is used to me and me only, taking care of her. She doesn’t like staying with other people may it be her dad or the grannies. She would only play with them for a while but will soon look for me. At night, I am the only one on duty because the husband takes his rest from a day of work. It is in times like this that I often feel alone and tired and thoughts would fill my mind.

They say it’s because she’s breastfed. Breastfeeding has always been my choice. I know both me and my daughter benefits a lot from it. But You know sometimes I seem to be thinking of switching to formula milk just so I can do things other than nurse her. Of course, I won’t and will never for as long as my mammary gland can produce milk.

What’s your thoughts on this fellow moms?

Timecheck: 4:10am and the little kid is finally asleep so it’s time for me to close my eyes again.

Goodnight again.

Holy Week Reflection

Rewind to Holy Week two years ago:

It was only a few weeks after I had a miscarriage and still on the verge on confusion, I was shattered and still full of questions. There was only one thing I want for Holy Week then: peace of mind.

Losing your child – your supposed-to-be first child – indeed was one of the most heartbreaking event that happened to me. Ganun pala yun. Para akong mababaliw. I didn’t want to go out, didn’t want to talk to anybody, didn’t want hi-hello-how’s you?, didn’t want to attend church masses. I was full of questions, parang napaka incomplete ko that time. Nagpakalugmok ako sa lungkot. Gusto ko lang mapag isa.

To be honest, part of me asked God kung bakit yun nangyari saken, samen. Bakit ako, when all I wanted was to be a good mother to my child; Bakit ako? Gayung ang daming magulang na pinapabayaan ang anak nila; Bakit ako? Gayung madami dyang iba na kayang ipamaigay lang yung anak nila. E ako hindi ko yun gagawin; Bakit ako? Ano bang ginawa ko?

For quite some time, I didn’t want to go to church. Ayokong magsimba. Not that I doubted God nor is angry. I just knew I would only cry again. I was already tired of crying. And I didn’t want anybody to see how shattered I was then.

 

Holy week came. My husband was invited to share some of his experience for  the Seven Last Words sa isang simbahan. I refused to. Yes, ako talaga ang umayaw. I told him he could if he wanteed to, but I won’t go with him. Hindi pa lang talaga ako ready sa ganun, then. Ayoko din sanang mag-Station of the Cross noon, but my husband insisted. There we went and what I did was nagsindi nalang ako ng kandila. And that was the time I prayed to Jesus:

I am really sorry for throwing these questions to you, Lord, kahit na alam kong kahit anong tanong ko e hindi ko naman makukuha yung sagot. I’m sorry for not praying to you so often after what happened. You know I believe in you and your will, but maybe it’s just that I cannot bear the pain I am experiencing right now. Hindi ako nagddoubt sayo at kahit kailan hindi yung mangyayari. I know it happened for a reason – a reason I may not know now but soon will find out. And I know that better things are on the way. I am sorry Lord. I love you and I believe in you. Please let this pain end, or at least make me feel better tomorrow. Help me be prepared to face the world again.

And I talked to my little angel:

My little angel, I’m sorry we didn’t get the chance to meet. I’m sorry you wouldn’t have the chance to see this beautiful world. I’m sorry we had to part even before we could be together. But I am happy you’re one of God’s angels now. I know pinahiram ka lang sa amin. Binawi ka man nya samen too soon, alam ko na may darating pa ulit. Please watch over us, your supposed to be family on earth, and, in God’s time, yung ipagkakaloob sa amin. I love you, little angel. I will never forget you. You’ll be forever in my heart.

Fast forward to present:

Indeed, God’s time is always perfect. We now have Jhia. Maybe, she is the answer. It may have taken a little while before I could figure it out, but she is the one God has given us.

Two years ago, I really felt like pinabayaan ako ni God. Don’t get me wrong, at one point in your life, kapag lugmok at sakit na sakit ka na, maiisip at maiisip mo yon. Pero for me, what’s important is you keep your faith even after the most painful event in your life. Naalala ko yung Footprints in the Sand, palagi kong naiisip yun. During the time na isang footprint na lang yung nakikita mo, that was the time pala that the Lord is carrying you. He never left.

Lahat ng nangyayari sa buhay natin may dahilan at lahat ng tanong, may kasagutan. We only have to be patient, we need to keep our faith. Kasi kahit ano naman ang mangyari, hindi nya tayo papabayaan.

 

“God will never leave you empty. He will replace everything you lost. If he ask you to put something down, it’s because he want you to pick up something greater.”